Monday, April 10, 2006

who and where?

Landed in a dip!
Lately several of my friends ended up in a crisises, i supported them to the best of my abilities.
People seem to think i am a rock, but sometimes i am a very soft rock, not really knowing who i am. Not really knowing where i belong.
I know only Waheguru can give me stability, but one way of another people want to identify.
For the people i live with my full life, i am a kind of traitor leaving my original religion. For the sikhs i am a rarity, a newcomer that is playing being a sikh.
There is no one i can share with, really share.
Waheguru please give me strength in this lonely hour!


Blogger Prabhu Singh said...

It's tough to feel lonely. I think it is a challenge that God has given some of us, so that we can grow. So that some day we may be able to fully take comfort in knowing that only God is there for us always.
I live by myself and it can be really challenging sometimes. If my friends didn't give me a hug every once in a while, I'd probably be insane.
Sometimes I think that God will provide me the opportunity to get married after I have learned the lesson of being alone. When I can just feel God by myself (without sangat/family) and be as peaceful and meditative as I feel inside Gurdwara.
I hope that you can feel that peace and feel your true support as you continue with your great seva of supporting others.

Tuesday, April 11, 2006 7:18:00 PM  
Blogger ss said...

Manpreet Ji - I concur with Prabhu Singh.

I know exactly how you feel, I've had to do this support role so many times, and sometimes the people you help and support are those who turn round to kick you when you're down.

But it's all part of or life and I accept it as such.

That doesnt mean that it doesnt get hard sometimes, as it does; but there are many places to turn to and Waheguru is always there for you - no matter what.

And there are plenty of us virtual friends who would only be too happy to help as much as we can.So please do.

Stay in Chardi Kaala Ji.

Wednesday, April 12, 2006 2:38:00 PM  
Blogger manpreet kaur said...

Dear Prabhu, Dear Surinder,

Thank you for your supporting words.
Prabhu you are right, it is a lesson. But my own weak self sometimes gets lost during this lesson.Thank you for guiding me.
And thank you Surinder for offering your (virtual) friendship, i accept this humbly. I hope i can meet up with such great friends.
I prayed a lot (my own private little conversations with Waheguru) and it works. I will be fine in a few days...
Thanks anyhow, it feels wonderful to have friends so far and close at the same time.
Waheguru blessings!

Wednesday, April 12, 2006 10:33:00 PM  
Blogger ss said...

"I hope i can meet up with such great friends."

You just let me know when you are coming to England, and I'd love to give you the full tour - including that street mural :-)

Thursday, April 13, 2006 1:19:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I concur with Prabhu Singh and ss. Living alone has it pros and cons. Right now I am enjoying living by myself. Manpreet Ji you can always count on your virtual friends.


Friday, April 14, 2006 7:16:00 PM  

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